In the spring of 2014 I found out I was pregnant with twins and started documenting my journey in a weekly post. I will be periodically posting these past writings, starting from the beginning. This was written July 2, 2014.
I’m coming up on my last week of employed work. I dont think it has really hit me but I’m sure it will in another week and a half when I give up my keys.
My manager and replacement (who started at the beginning of June) threw a going away party for me last night. It was very special and made me feel very honored. I’ve been lucky to have had the opportunity to have the best job around and I wouldn’t be leaving if it weren’t for a worthy cause like having two babies. Although I am ready to devote more time to resting and getting our house ready for the babies, I will miss the camaraderie of the community I work with. Most of all, I will miss learning from them. Although I have not held my position long, I have learned so much and I’ll be forever grateful for the opportunities and experiences I was given.
I am also so thankful for the opportunity to stay home. It’s a dream come true and I wouldn’t want it any other way. But in the coming years with my new job as Supermom, I hope I can find ways to help me progress as a person and a professional. It’s been difficult trying to pave a way for myself in a career, knowing I’d want to have a family. I always knew when I had kids I’d want to stay home but I never knew when or IF those kids would come. At times I felt I was in limbo. It’s hard to invest yourself in a job or career when you don’t know how long it will last. But if there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s that every piece of my life gives me a chance to both gain and give something and when hard work and effort are put forth, the rewards are sure to follow.
Although my career may not follow a traditional path, through mommyhood, I’m sure I’ll continue to gain experiences that will help me grow. I’ll have my hands full but I hope to be able to find time to continue my passions. I know my life is about to change forever, and I know I will have no time to myself anymore, but somewhere in there I should still be able to find some sort of balance. Maybe not in the first year, or even second. But someday, our little bundles will get bigger and go on with their own lives. I just hope through it all I can remember who I am at this point and maintain some sort of independent identity aside from being a mom.
Fellow moms out there, do you have any advice? How do you balance family and a career? How do you keep your passions and find fulfillment outside of motherhood?