In the spring of 2014 I found out I was pregnant with twins and started documenting my journey in a weekly post. I will be periodically posting these past writings, starting from the beginning. This was written July 22, 2014.
I’ve always been a cryer. Crying runs in my family and I have a slew of easily teary eyed aunts that can attest to this. So being six months into my pregnancy, I was surprised I hadn’t had any fits of pregnancy crying or blubbering. Maybe there was one or two times but that’s pretty normal even for non pregger ladies. I even recently noted my astonishment to a few friends and my always comforting husband how well I’ve done.
But I must have spoke too soon. It hit me a week or so ago, driving into my last day of work. I was a little emotional over leaving that life behind me but I was also overwhelmed with thankfulness that I’m able to stay home with our babies. It was sinking in that all this is really happening.
But it didn’t stop there. It’s those darn YouTube videos everyone posts on Facebook. They seem to be magnetizing towards me! There was the one where the little girl opens her birthday present and realizes they’re all going to Disneyland. And the one of the dad dancing with his daughter when he gets home from work. And the photos of the dog’s last day before being put down. And even the one where that girl made it through all those ninja obstacles, which really isn’t all that emotional at all, but it still somehow managed to make me cry.
I’ve also noticed myself losing my patience more quickly. I’ve always been a pretty patient person but these days it’s been getting pretty thin. And then last week, it all culminated. Target was running a special, where if you buy a particular Baby Swing, you get a free Rock n’ Play (baby gear). Other moms with twins have said these two items are a must and I will need two of each. So this sale was perfect and just happened to be the models I was looking at. I went to order them online and they were unavailable! The nerve! I called Target and spoke to a customer service rep who said I’d just have to keep checking back. I hung up. Really?! I called again, spoke to another rep and I couldn’t take it.
To make a long story short, this poor customer service guy really got it from a seven month pregnant lady. I told him it was a mean trick to play on pregnant ladies searching for their baby gear. You can run those kinds of false advertising specials with sports gear or whatever but please! Don’t mess with the pregnant ladies.
I hung up the phone and needless to say, I lost it and for a brief 5 minutes I was in a hysterical fit of wailing sobs. My goodness, over a swing. After a short period I was fine again, but sat in disbelief in how I had reacted. Luckily this has been the worst of it, and it really only comes in waves. But I’ve found when it hits, it really hits!
It’s a good thing we can visibly tell when women are pregnant. I know being pregnant is not an excuse to go off the deep end but hopefully you can cut us a little slack.
All in all though, I’ve been doing really well. I’m getting bigger and bigger and meanwhile slower and slower. Sleeping is getting harder and harder but despite it all I am feeling great. And in case you’re interested, after hanging up with the Target customer service rep I checked back an hour later and the swings were available again :).