In the spring of 2014 I found out I was pregnant with twins and started documenting my journey in a weekly post. I will be periodically posting these past writings, starting from the beginning. This was written November 2, 2014.
Nate has a saying he often uses when it comes to asking for something, “The squeaky wheel gets the grease.” This is proving to be true with our two little munchkins as I often find myself faced with two crying infants who are wanting to be held and comforted. I can’t really hold both of them effectively so I usually tend to pick up the one who is crying the loudest.
I’m working on the baby wearing gig with wraps and carriers and I can carry one pretty easily but until they can hold themselves up a bit more, they both kind of pile into each other when I try to carry them both in a single wrap.
I often wonder what it would be like to only care for one baby and I feel bad, hoping I’m giving them enough stimulation and one on one time. I expressed this concern to Nate once and he responded promptly and said, “Don’t wonder.” Although he’s right, I can’t help it. They probably will spend more time in a swing than they would if they were a singleton baby (once they figure out they actually like the swings). And I can’t co-sleep like I would if we only had one.
Someday when these babies are too big to hold, it will no longer be about which crying baby to hold or which to burp first, but instead, deciding which extracurricular event to watch, or even perhaps which college graduation to attend. This isn’t a problem reserved for twins but I’m sure we’ll be faced with these kind of choices more often.
Although they go through phases, Karson seems to be the squeaky wheel, the one who needs more attention and he constantly wants to be held. He’s definitely going to be a Mama’s boy while Lucy already seems to be more independent.
It’s fun to see their little personalities start to emerge. I feel like I’m starting to figure them out. And either this has just been a good week or I can actually say, I think it’s already starting to get a little easier. Or maybe just more predictable. Or maybe I’m just surrendering more. Either way, I think we’re all going to survive!
[Added Jan 18, 2015: It didn’t take long for them to switch roles. While Karson is still a cuddly buggly lovebug, he has mostly been more independent while Lucy wants to be held constantly and acts as my little shadow]